The bird watchers

Another trip to the Chinese Garden, but this time, I brought my camera along. Moving aroung on the bicycle is going to be much more fun than I thought it to be. The ride took less than 1/2 an hour from Clementi to the Chinese Garden.

The group of bird watchers were still gathered around the tree. The migratory birds appears to be still feeding amongst the branches. The fruits are still aplenty in the tree. Managed to shoot a couple of photos of the birds feeding there. There is the so called 'paradise fly-catcher' and the starlings which both caught my attention and excitment

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For unto us a Child is born, a Son is given......

Service was a combined one this morning,.... everyone's in Christmas mood, afterall, tomorrow would be...... Christmas Eve.

Silent Night, Holy Night........
All is calm, all is bright.

Christmas means so much more to me these past few years. Not about the presents, the giving, the holidaying, the celebrations..... it's so much more to Christmas than these.

For
unto us,
a child is born.....
unto us,
a Son is given......

So simple a message, but so profound and amazing is the story behind Christmas. No wonder, even the wise men of old travelled far to worship the child!

O, how I wish, for all to know and be touched by the real reason of Christmas, of a love so amazing,....


Blessed Christmas to all.....

First road trip.....

It was a nice break this morning from in the wet weather we had over the past few days. I was out of action since wednesday. Gastric flu I suppose. Had been in and out of the toilet umpteen times until my legs went wobbly. At least today, the urge had eased. I had wanted to go down to the track earlier but was held up when the 'garang guni' man came by. Sold the 5' high stack of 'old' newspaper for a miserable $3.30....

By the time I got to the track, it's close to 9.45am. Two of the cyclist came by just as I was adjusting my mp3 player. We rode to the end of the track and met up with another two other cyclist. They wanted to make a short trip over to the chinese garden this morning. I initially declined to join them, since the trip's going to get onto the road and also given the state of my bowels, I thought it safer to cycle in the vicinity of the track. However, I finally relented and took the challenge to join them. I thought might as well since I am already confident enough and can keep a steady ride. It's going to be my first road trip.... :)

Surprising, the ride was a breeze. The traffic was light and we took to the road only when it's relatively safe to do so. Most of the time, we were on the pavement. Really grateful for the four of them who ride very carefully and took good care to look out for me.

It was such a interesting ride, and we met this group of bird watchers / photographers who was gathered around a tree outside the Chinese Garden. They were excitedly snapping photos of several migratory birds seen feeding in the tree. The short chat with them was also very interesting. One of them, in his early 70s shared about his passion and outlook in life. It amazed me to see how passionate he is in his hobby.

Took lunch at the hawker centre at Jurong East before riding back. All in good time. I think I am getting hooked to cycling now.

old man by the bench

Was cycling along the park connector when I saw the group of people gathered around the stone bench near the 500m marker. Aha.... there's this old man practising his chinese calligraphy there. Pretty good pieces and what strikes me most is that he is using tissue papers for his writing. Using tissue papers to write sure is not easy. The ink must be controlled very well and is very different from the way rice paper absorbs ink. He explained that it's cheaper that way since his purpose is for practicing his writing skills. Many of those gathered around asked for his completed pieces which he gladly gave away. He would throw them away anyway since it's just practice pieces. Had a long talk with him and he gave me two of his pieces...

The feeling of Christmas

As usual, it was kinda rushing for me to get to class after work. But, as I stepped into the mall, I paused. The tall christmas tree at the entrance caught my attention. Didn't realise that the Christmas season is here already. Perhaps was caught up with the Hari Raya and Deepavali holidays this past month as there were more Malay and Indian collegues for me at the new working place and the 2 festivals was celebrated more consciously here. Seeing the christmas tree all lighted up brings on a different festive mood. Should be hearing those good old christmas carols in the shopping malls soon.

All so soon, it's Christmas again......... :)

so small.....

So Small

Yeah, Yeah

What you got if you ain't got love

The kind that you just want to give away

It's ok to open up

Go ahead and let the light shine through

I know it's hard on a rainy day

You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone

But don't run out on your faith

Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing

Is just a grain of sand

And what you've been out there searching for forever

Is in your hands

And when you figure out love is all that matters after all

It sure makes everything else seem

So small

It's so easy to get lost inside

A problem that seems so big at the time

It's like a river that's so wide it swallows you whole

While you're sitting around thinking about what you can't change

And worrying about all the wrong things

Time's flying by, moving so fast

You better make it count cause you can't get it back

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing

Is just a grain of sand

And what you've been out there searching for forever

Is in your hands

Oh, and when you figure out love is all that matters after all

It sure makes everything else seem

So small, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing

Is just a grain of sand

And what you've out there searching for forever

Is in your hands

And then you figure out love is all that matters after all

It sure makes everything else

Oh, it sure makes everything else seem

So small

Yeah, yeah

rainforest trail @ Botanic Gardens

It was a long time since I last visited the Botanic Gardens. The group of walking enthusiasts made plans for a 2 hrs visit to the Botanic Gardens with promises of a good introduction to the oldest rainforests in the world, beating even those found in the Amazon River Basin. The afternoon was soaked in a light drizzle which dried out by the time we are ready to set off.

First stop, Ginger Garden.... wow, didn't realised that the Garden is done up so well now. It's sure beats the old days when there were hardly any facilities and attractions.

But the rainforest trail was kinda disappointment. It's only a short 15 mins walk and part of the trail were boarded up. Supposedly for renovation of a board-walk trail.

Then there's the evolution garden. Thanks to the commentary given by the group leader, the walk through the garden was both informative as well as enjoyable. Imaging what's to be like for a morning walk in those early history is not difficult after the trail.

If not for my wounded knee, I guess I would have enjoyed the trip even more. :)

first fall....

Got this bike from one of the guys I used to meet on weekends during my morning jogs. They had been pestering me to go riding with them for quite some time now. Given my health setback the past few months, I had to cut down on the jogging and was doing leisurely walk most of the weekends. Well, since this guy had wanted to cut down on the number of cycles he is owning now, I relented and paid him for the old bike.

Really needed some time to get familiar with the cycle. Adjustments to the height of the seat, were made with some help while other adjustments have to wait. Took the cycle for a couple of spins down the familiar park connector. I was getting to love the thrill of being able to speed down the track.


But I guess, everyone must go thru that fall off the cycle some time in their learning trip. That came suddenly for me. It was one of my off days when I decided to workout on the cycle along the park connector - up, down the connector for about 4 rounds. That makes a good 16 km. and decided that it was enough. But round the corner, just turning onto the carpark access road below my flat, I flew off the cycle! It happened so fast, that I was not even able to say what really happened. I only knew that I landed hard on my palms, sprained the left wrist and scraped the skin off around the area below my left knee. phew! that was painful.... a painful first fall....... lolz.... I guess this is all part of the thrill.


OUCH!

i see grace

Got the latest music album which contained worship songs recorded live during the last few months. Really liked the album. One of my favourite amongst them ...


Rejoice O Israel

I behold a city on a hill
A nation torn by war
But in that place, Adonai says
His grace has been poured forth

I behold a people who
Are waiting for their LORD
For He will come with trumpet sounds
As nations watch in awe

Shalom Jerusalem
Messiah will come
He'll wipe away your tears and pain
Rejoice, daughter of Zion

Shalom Jerusalem
Peace be within your walls
Yeshua will return to reign
In majesty and pow'r

When we see the Son of God
Descending from the clouds
He'll be arrayed in light
Shining glorious and bright
On you, Jerusalem

He'll wipe away your tears and pain
Rejoice O Israel

- karen Lim @ 2003

中秋 - Mid Autumn

中秋 Mid-Autumn....

Pensive....

A past romance that will never be again?
The aching feeling of lost?
Longings?

Once, a long time ago, .....
wasn't I too, the lone traveller in a foreign land?
Home, far away from home,
loved ones,.... across the miles.....
and it was you, on a mid autumn night,
that kept me company.... bright, round, shining.

Will you too, my dear friend,
be pensive on this night?
Who would you miss?
Who would miss you?

Your youth ought not be wasted,
As I did, years ago....
Your loved one's longing,...
ought not be in vain......

Learn to treasure,
For all too soon, the years would have flitted away....
And what remains, are,....... just faded memories.

And mid autumn comes, ..... only once a year.

Blessedness

Had dinner with a group of ex-collegues just the other Friday evening. Didn't realise that it's already past 1 year since I left the company. Well, perhaps nothing much had changed for them. The same age-old urgency in meeting datelines, frustrations, and perhaps a little more of the intra-office politics. Was it not gladness that I had left? Else, I would be in the same ship with them, with the same sinking feeling... and perhaps we would be drowning our sorrows with beer instead of a relaxed dinner at this cosy little restuarant.

As I looked back, I marvelled at how blessed I am. Over these past year, I had not faced any lack. There is provision for every month and short contracted assignments came by now and then for that extra spending money. Indeed, Jehova Jireh is my provider.

The latest assignment was meant as a help for a friend's company. But after a month, it looks like the situation there is alot more messy than I had originally thought it to be. There is really nothing much I can do to help resolve their problem. So at most, I would be there to help in the tedious work of getting as accurate data as possible into their 'system'. Wonder how long more I would stay. My guess is at most another 2 - 3 mths. The work is getting meaningless and I didn't want to get caught in another hamster running wheel, running on and on but getting nowhere. At least I have more fulfillment with the 2 afternoons I had helped out at the World Vision office.

There's much excitement on Sunday in church. Pastor made the announcement on the new church building and what is in store for us in 3-4 yrs time. We all went wowwwwww! The building really look very futuristic. They had a display model of what the building would look like, a lifestyle hub and entertainment area plus shops and exhibition halls. It's going to be an iconic building. And best of all, it's so near my place! :)

This indeed is blessedness!

Treetop Trail

It was sort of a last minute arrangement when Patricia messaged on Friday afternoon about going on a hike to the MacRitchie Nature Reserve. We will take the HSBC Tree Top trail covering about 10 km. Thought that's not a bad idea. The last time I really went on a long hike was so long ago that I couldn't even remember when.

Not much of a preparation, but I did managed to grab a bite and took with me two slices of peanut butter sandwich and a bottle of water. Wanted to travel light. Getting there was easy and we arrived at the start of the trail by 9.45 am. Along the way, we passed the paddle lodge and there was already a crowd of young people out in the water kayaking.

Really, it's good to be young.

The trail was un-eventful. The only interruption we had along the way was to stop and "be looked at" by a small group of monkeys that ventured very near to the trail.

We reached the ranger's station and had a short restroom break before continuing and reached the tree-top walk. I should think that the last 400m walk was more like a climb. Got across the treetop walk in double quick time. Arrghhh..... always the phobia when it comes to heights. Didn't dare to stop and look..... lolz. sure was a wasted opportunity.

The return trip was really tiring. We took the trail towards the Riffle Range exit. By the time we reached Riffle Range, we were all tired out.

The group of monkeys that lingered along the roadside was a good attraction, specially was those adorable baby monkeys who looks at you with large dark eyes.

The hike down Riffle Range is a good 5 km but about 1/3 way down, we managed to hitch a ride from a small lorry.... phew~ made it to lunch at a coffeeshop along Dunearn Road by 12.30pm.

The weather's gone crazy

Vaguely remembers that the months of June and July are supposedly to be some of the hottest months in the year. Not that I am an environmentalist, or a tree-hugger, or an advocate of saving "mother earth". No, in fact, it's Father God that I more inclined to associate with. Nevertheless, I can't help but noticed that the weather these days seems to have gone crazy.

The fallen leaves and the uncomfortable wetness for this last few days brought remembrances to that cold autumn morning when I walked down the street in Ottawa. It felt like that fall, years ago in Canada, only that now, it's much wetter.... and perhaps much more depressed,.... Autumn had seem so romantic when you were young. The maple trees were painted colourful, red amidst the green and orange, but the fallen leaves along the pathway here were a distressed brown and the rustling as I strolled by were dulled.....

I guess the melancholy is due to the added years that went by too swiftly?

Update.....

How time flies. It's been more than a month since my last post. And also, alot had happened during this past month.

The last episode of health scare had somewhat passed...... looking back, it's kinda weird to be gripped by that unknown and unexplained bout of discomfort for almost 3 mths. First it was the period of elevated blood pressure and heart palpitations, then followed by a whole 2 mths of gastric bletching although there was little gastric pain. The bletching was bad, especially 2 hrs after food. In fact, it was so bad that it lead to aches across the chest area. But good to report, that the bletching has now subsided. It feels so good now, although the gas does build up occasionally, but it post no great worry now.

Some time back, a friend had asked for prayer support for someone she knew, who was diagnosed with liver cancer. In a certain way, I could empathise with what her friend would be going through, but to read the blog posted by her husband (http://jokwan.blogspot.com) on their struggle, their hope, their daily events..... I really don't know what words of encouragement or consolation I could write for them. I could only utter my prayers for them. Well, in a way, her friend's relief came. It was a Saturday morning, 26 Jun when I saw the obituary published in the papers....

"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." - Isaiah 40:31

She have a new strength now, with the Lord.

The calligraphy class last night was kinda a farewell gathering. We did not get down to do any practices.... there's only the remaining 3 of us as most of the other students had dropped out during the last few months.

Old uncle Mr Loo had to take a break now as he had just under-went an eye ops. The other lady from China, Mdm Li had dropped by with her daughter. She had intended to rejoin our class as she felt the atmosphere is better here. Too bad that we would be putting the class on hold for now. Anyway, we will leave our names to pre-register and hopefully when there are sufficient students, the class can start again. Well, we exchanged contacts and most likely will arrange to gather for an afternoon tea some time.

After some 6 mths of learning, here is how I have progressed.... and, I guess I would still have to keep on practicing.

Just some thoughts....

This recent episode of uncertainty over my health has its good. At least, it sets me thinking. In which areas?

First - how much I appreciated my family. I had stayed over at my mum's place for some 2 weeks during the times when I felt real bad. It's during those days that I really really felt the closeness and importance of family. Who else would be there for you beside them?

Second - how much I regretted those past years when I was so caught up with work and my own personal life that I neglected my family, my mum. Where was I when my mum felt sick at home? Where was I when my mum herself faced the uncertainty in her health? Its a regret that I will never be able to make up.

Third - while personal time and space is treasured, but I guess I will have to forego some of these. I decided to let out one of my room now so that at least there is someone else around the house. Of course there's the monetary benefit to it, but that's not the main issue. The new tenant would be moving in by 1 Jun. A young man, from Shanghai and working in one of the logistic company. Hope this would be good company.

Fourth - having been so caught up with worklife in the past years, many of my old friends had sort of drifted apart. I guess it's time to link up and bond again these precious people who had once shared my life.

Fifth - perhaps it's time to reassess my life goals and directions. The evening study is getting more and more interesting, and my volunteering hours for the 2 afternoons are satisfying. But I guess I am still having too much of free time now?

Sixth - looking back, I know I did not have the strong enough faith to say that I trusted God totally. It was easy to praise God and have faith when things goes well. But, despite the years of sitting under the good teaching of pastor, who had helped me to build up much faith in God, I would say that it's not easy when you see and felt the symptoms in your body. I am glad, that at the end of it all, the Lord is still my God.

Well, there are some things I had purposed to do right now:

• whenever possible, to go to my mum's place for dinner and occasionally stay over. It's also quite some time since I last had time with the few nieces and nephews. Wonder when they would next visit at my mum's place.
• start contacting and corresponding with those precious friends that I would want to cherish.
• be more active in joining some activity groups and make more friends. The group of weekend cyclists at the park connector had been bugging me to get a cycle and join them. Well, maybe I might do that.

These are simple enough things to start with..... :)

Gladness of heart!

It was such a beautiful morning today. And feeling well enough, I thought I had better go get some exercise. It's almost 2 mths since I last done that. This last 2 mths was a roller coaster ride for me, health wise as well as my faith in God. But all praises to His wonderful name! I know I am definitely on the mend now. The blood pressure is a stable average of 120/80 now, though it did fluctuate a little, now and then. I will have to monitor it for another week or so. I believe, as God had always restored, that my restoration would be more than a 100-fold. I look forward to the day when I can declare that I am healthier and better than before.


Didn't want to over-exert myself, I took a slow walk down the familiar park connector. Meet some of the regular folks there. One of them, Patricia did agree that that can of 'whatever-had-happened-to-it' fruit cocktail is definitely the main culprit. The toxin is likely be acting up against my body. She mentioned that one of her friend was sick for a whole 9 mths after he swam in the polluted waters off HK in order to make some repairs to his boat. I am glad that this episode is definitely teaching me many valuable lessons.


On the way back, I passed by the old place where I used to live. The flats are all demolished now. The plot of land looked so empty. No, I am not being sentimental. After all, I stayed only about 6 years in the area and there is really not much attachment to it. Went up to one of the neighbouring flat to get a view..... wonder what are they going to do with the plot of land. It's such a large area!


Okay, time of church service now. How glad am I, to be going to the house of the Lord!

The amazing grace of God

I see Grace

Jesus my help,
I call on Your name!
I cast my cares on You.

Jesus my hope,
My tower of strength!
My faith is found in You.

I see You pierced, wounded for me,
When I look to the cross, I see.....

I see grace,
Sealed by Your sacrifice.
I see love reaching for me.
Precious blood,
Washes and sanctifies.
Healing flows,
Setting me free.
I see grace.....

Bearer of sin,
Afflicted and tried!
You paid redemption's price.

Bearing my curse,
You've set me on high!
Your death has brought me life.

I see You pierced, wounded for me,
When I look to the cross I see.....

I see grace,
Sealed by Your sacrifice!
I see love reaching for me.

Precious blood,
Washes and sanctifies.
Healing flows,
Setting me free.
I see grace.....

Recovery!

It was an affirmation to the remma word of God on Sunday. I could feel the recovery proccess taking place the last 2 days. The amplified heartbeat and breathlessness is no more as I go about my daily activities. The set of BP readings taken over the last 3 days averaged 125/84. This looks remarkable as I used to averaged slightly higher than this.

Looking back, I guess there were various factors that affected my health over the past month. That can of 'what-ever-had-happened-to-it' fruit cocktail definitely is one of the main contributing factor. Coupled by the sore-throat and flu symptoms, it sure took a long time for me to 'flush' out the undesirable stuff that's affecting me bodily. Now that I am on the road to recovery, I guess will be extra conscientious on maintaining my health and well-being.

This episode is really an awakening event and gives me a first hand experience of what it means to be robbed of my health. I am also glad that it gives me a chance once again to experience the love and provision of God in my life.

All praises to Him......

the bread of life.....

It was a remma word of God that I received gladly yesterday, during Pastor's message.

1 Pet 2:24 - Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.

Yes, Pastor had specifically called out my healing - by His strip, our heart disease is healed, by His strip, our high blood pressure is healed.

Isn't God wonderful?

And Pastor taught once again the importance of the Lord's supper. The bread and the wine. Make distinction between the bread and the wine. The bread is the Lord's broken body, broken for us that we may receive his healing, while the wine is the new covenant, in His blood, which was shed for the forgiveness of our sins.

Isaiah 53:4 - Surely he hath borne our griefs and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

Matt 8:16,17 - Himself took our infirmities, and bare our sicknesses.

John 6:49-59 - unless you chew my flesh and drink my blood.....

How timely is God's message. I believe in God for my healing.

30-folds, 60-folds and a 100-folds.

It was somewhat worrying for the past week. Despite my symptoms, the doctor had not prescibed any medication. I was really perplexed as to what is the cause of the faster than usual heartbeat.

Feeling rather breathless again on Wed morning, I decided to drop by the neighbourhood clinic again. The BP measurement was a high of 160/100. The doctor on duty decided to give me medication for high-blood pressure. Half a tablet to be taken daily. Now I am really worried. Would it be medication for life from now on? Well, he said to review again in a month's time.

The three days that followed were a blurr. I was feeling lethargy for greater part of the day. Decided to spend the nights at my mum's place as a precaution. The BP reading dropped drastically to 99/65 on occasions. The breathlessness continued, but was it due to the medication? I find it even tiring to walk the distance to the MRT station!

Decided to stop the medication on Friday morning and see the doctor again. Well, he agreed that I should stop it for a week and monitor to see if the BP continues to climb. Perhaps a quarter of a tablet might do. I prefer not at all.

Second day now, without the medication. Generally, I seems to be getting better. The BP reading is now about 110/76 and climbing (I better monitor the reading carefully). The breathlessness does not occur so often and the discomfort seems somewhat related to stomach gases. Was it actually gastric related? I don't know. But I believe I am on the mend now. A 30-folds, the 60-folds improvement.... to a 100-folds recovery.

It's a battle of faith now. But really, I have so little faith. But let me rely on the author and finisher of my faith - Jesus. His words for us is always, "fear not".

A roller coaster ride

The past 2 weeks was like a roller coaster ride. Really don't know how I managed, but I got my blood test done on 25 Apr, one week after that earlier visit to the doctor.

The second visit to the polyclinic on 3 May was a bad experience. She was a trainee lady doctor, under supervision by one of the more senior doctor. It was more of a messed up consultation, but anyway, the conclusion was that my blood pressure is still high, 160/100, while the blood test results shows I have borderline high cholesterol level. I should have asked for a printed report. She asked me to go on diet but without explaining what is a suitable diet. Suppose to have another blood test in 3-4 mths time.... isn't that a bit too long time away? The senior doctor said no medication is required now. Sigh~ I went away not feeling any better or assured on what was my ailment.

By chance, one of my friend who is into this health supplement marketing thingie arranged for a meeting. Decided to do another cholesterol test with them. The reading was a high total of 223 with 39/173 HDL vs LDL. Well, I guess I definitely will need to work on reducing the high cholesterol level. Signed up for their 90 day money back program. It should do me good, nevermind the breathlessness I feel now or the high blood pressure readings. I will get a clearer picture in 2 mths time.

The breathlessness went away, and came back, and strangely seems to appear without cause. But it appears to get better. And somehow, I seems to get very tired. I am quite sure it was because of that bad can of fruit cocktail. Could it be the symptom that my body is fighting hard with the virus/germs that is still remaining? But it's more than 3 weeks since that stupid mistake of eating that cup of "whatever-had-happened-to-it-fruitcocktail". Perplexed!

And my spiritual faith is really taking a roller coaster ride. When it comes down to facing the battle all alone in the dark of the night, it really calls on a strong and unwavering faith. I guess it's a spiritual battle that had left me with scars. Will I emerge stronger in my faith and trust in God?

Pastor's message exhort us to have a change of our mindset, to have a sound mind that focuses on the Peace and Faith that Jesus gave us. Hope, a confidence expectation of good. Jesus' redemption of us starts at the garden when he sweats drops of blood from his head. He also bore for us a crown of thorns, redeeming us from the curse of the fall, and he was crucified at Calvary, or Golgotha, a skull of deadly thoughts.

He also reminded us of that God gives us sufficient grace for the day, not for tomorrow or next week. Yes, His grace is sufficient to see me through today, one day at a time.

I will rest in Him.

Poison in the Can

The last week was spent almost in a daze. I first felt the fast rising heartbeat last Saturday's evening. Was it due to the stress? I had just taken on an assignment for a survey to be conducted in the coming 2 weeks. But really, there shouldn't be this stressful feeling. Definitely the assignment is not as demanding and stressful as the job that I had left. Strange.

So, just to be on the safe side, I dropped by the 24-hrs clinic on my way home. The young doctor on duty didn't think it as serious in nature, although the blood pressure was pretty high. 150/100? I never had it this high before. The latest measurement done last month was relatively lower at 130/88. Anyway, he prescribed some muscle relaxant for me to help ease the stiff shoulders. Sunday passed by, as normal as normal can be, except for that nagging feeling of breathlessness and a faster than usual heartbeat.

Monday was bad. The 2 pills I took after breakfast worked its way into my limbs, and my head felt a tonne heavy. The label says NORGESIC, (whatever that is) and came with a warning - may cause drowsiness! Ahh.... should have known better.

Came Tuesday, and the symptoms seems getting worst. Wonder what's wrong with my body. Kinda worried. Should have gotten the contact numbers of all my insurance agents printed for my mum to keep. lolz.... I think I am getting real panicky.

Decided to seek a second opinion. The polyclinic is just across the road and it's past 1pm, so there shouldn't be a crowd. In anycase, my registration is always accorded prority status. :) The doctor measured a 170/100 bp. wow~ I had never hit this mark before. But he doesn't seems much concerned. Wonder why. He said from the symptoms, it is unlikely a heart problem. But to allay my fears, he sent me for a ECG test. The results seems pretty okay. Well, he suggested more tests next week and a review in 2 weeks time. Hmmmm... well, I guess I will just have to rest easy first. It's seems pretty reassuring for now. But what is really the cause?

Going thru' my mind were a thousand scenarios. But still, the only hope that I would want to rest on, is the assurance that God had given, - thru His Son, Jesus. But then, why do the symptoms seems to get worst? I tried to strengthen my faith and trust in God, but each night, as I lay down to rest, the negative thoughts kept coming back. Sigh~

Then it dawned on me..... oww! It must have been that half cup of fruit cocktail which I had on Friday night! I had originally thought that the can of cocktail was not opened. Someone had left the can of cocktail, opened but still in it's tin can, neatly sitting in the fridge. The top of the can was cut neatly opened so that it can used as a cover. I didn't notice that the can was opened until a couple of days ago. Why waste it? So I scooped out a half cup on Friday evening for dessert. But oh no! That can had been sitting there for more than 2 mths! I remembered we had a lunch gathering during Chinese New Year period and that was when the can was opened. That's how long ago it was!

Oh my! But is that really it? I didn't get a tummy ache afterall right?

Then Pastor's message on last Sunday came to mind. Somewhere, somehow, he taught about the passage from 2 Kings 4:38 - About how Elisja was sitting with the sons of the prophets and dinner was served. The servant had mistakenly sliced some wild gourds into the stew and those were poisionous. "There is death in the pot!" the sons cried out. And Elisha put a handful of fine flour into the pot and when they ate, there was nothing harmful in the pot.

"There is death in the pot!" - was it an affirmation that what I had eaten is causing me these? And of course, I quickly took communion. This was what the message was about! But ofcourse, I was still wondering and still doubtful.

Thursday morning. My assignment this week brought me to meet a Traditional Chinese Medicine Practitioner. No harm trying out a consultation.

After hearing my ordeal and taking the pulses, his first remark is that my digestive system is blocked. This is why it is causing the shortness of breath, the discomfort, the heaviness of head. His prescription is supposed to help clear the digestive passage upwards. Come to think of it, there seems some truth in it. Had I not been getting that bloated feeling?

The medicine was bitter. 4 packs of powdered medicine to be mixed in hot water and taken after meals, twice a day. sigh~

Well, it's Saturday again today. I sure felt alot better. The pulsating heartbeat is gone and I can breath alot easier now. Though the bloated feeling is still there, but is alot better. I can really heave a sigh of relieve. So God was right! And I thank Him once again, for the word and His watch over me.

Now, I think I should take the communion again.... it's a gesture of thanks and rememberance of His completed works on the cross. Praise Jesus!

A fool has said in his heart, 'there is no God.'

The answer to the issue on the fundamentals of Creationism vs Evolutionism was answered sooner than I expect, and I believe it's God given, really.

Snr Pastor was away in Israel for the past week and Pastor Lian was preaching during the mid-week bible study as well as the Sunday Service. And in both messages, somehow, she touched on the subject. Having been attending the services regularly, the topic on creationism was seldom preached on, as far as I can remember. So it was an awesome feeling when Pastor Lian taught on Friday night about how we were "fearfully and wonderfully made" and that "we are not here by chance". And when she opened yesterday's sermon with references to the creation theory, and made mention about Charles Darwin and the Theory of Evolution, wow~ I knew then that God had made it His concern for what goes on even in my thoughts.

"The need of the World is to listen to God."-Albert Einstein

"For you formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvellous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.  My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth." - Psalms 139:13-15

Indeed, when I read the study text on the Prenatal Development, which spans the 9 months between conception and birth, I can only say that it is simply amazing!

From the fertilized egg (zygote), begins a process of cell division - one cell becomes two, two becomes four.... until about 150 cells after 10 days and at this stage it becomes an embryo. The genetic plan begins to form at this stage, with the cells begining to specialise as components of particular organ systems (differentiation). There is the nervous system, the skin, the muscles, the bones, blood vessels, internal organs, digestive system, lungs, glands, ... and millions of specialized cells. And then, in 3 weeks time, you get the heartbeat, a reflexive response to stimulation! It's so amazing, that from a single cell, a complex life is formed.

And, I, am one from such a development! Certainly, I am not here by chance. I am fearfully and wonderfully made!

"The fool has said in his heart, 'there is no God.' " - Psalm 14:1

And Pastor Lian went on the explain the awesome reason behind the creation story, the 6 days of creation, on how He completed everything for man, His crowning creation to enjoy, how He let man have the freedom of choice, of choosing between the tree of life and the tree of knowledge of good and evil, of how, unless we are capable of choosing, we will never be able to love; of how man made the wrong choice and how God break from His rest to give us again the completed works..... the completed work of Jesus' death on the cross, paying the price for restoring us.

Yes, we have an awesome God whose heart is a father's heart of love!

Mercy Saw Me...

This is really a very beautiful song that we sang during service. Hope to share it here with all of you folks.

MERCY SAW ME

The years had left scars,
And the scars have left pain,
How could he recognize me,
For I wasn't the same;
I knew I should pay and I knew the price,
For justice and law had demanded my life.

O but his tender heart heard my desperate cry,
And he saw all my past through merciful eyes!

Beautiful, that's how mercy saw me,
For I was broken and so lost;
Mercy looked at all my faults.
Justice of God saw what I had done,
But mercy saw me through the Son;
Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!

For sin had stolen all my dignity,
And all my self esteem;
But I was made brand new again,
When mercy looked at me.

Beautiful, that's how mercy saw me,
For I was broken and so lost;
Mercy looked at all my faults.
Justice of God saw what I had done,
But mercy saw me through the Son;
Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!

Not what I was but what I could be,
That's how mercy saw me!

That's how mercy saw me!

Creationism vs Evolutionism

I knew that's one basic issue which I have to get it settled, sooner or later.....

Well, it's more than a month since my last post. Yes, what else but that I was busy, really busy, honest.... hahahaa... just the typical excuse. Chinese New Year celebrations, friends visits, household chores, then the part-time work engagement for the month of March...... and on top of that, the night classes for that long awaited Psychology course had started almost immediately after CNY.

The first 2 lessons were interesting enough, touching on mostly medical terms which is very alien to me. The central nervouse system, the brain functions, the chemical components, and so on...... not too bad, but is pretty difficult to grasp and remember all the terms.

But, the most disturbing topic cropped up in the 3rd lesson. Although Dr Ong skimmed briefly over, but the topic is definitely one which I think I have to get it settled in my own conviction. The radical idea of evolution as put forth by Charles Darwin.... vs the doctrine of creationism, of God, of the human soul, and spirit. It would be a hinderance and stumbling block for me if I do not get it settled before I proceed further.

4th lesson.... genetics, influences on psychological processes, development, nurture vs nature, .... many of these seems to, undoubtedly goes against the grain of many of my personal convictions, belief and faith's standpoint,....

Impossible! To say that we, mankind came from monkeys,..... I would never want to stomach that. But the study text also pointed out that Charles Darwin, or other evolutionary scientist actually did not make that statement. What they say is that it is possible that we, had a common ancestor million years ago. Really, I don't see how much difference does the two different statement makes. The interesting theory is that of the doctrine of natural selection. The organism that exhibit the traits that best suits it's survival would dominate the population. The often mis-quoted "Survival of the fittest". Instead, the debate would be on nature-nuture controversy, the heredity vs environment issue, the genetics and inheritance concept.....

Ahhhh.. all these are interesting issues for discussions and further evaluation. So, you see, I am really busy! Yes, I better read through the remaining part of chapter 5, before those Chromosomes, Genes and DNA gets to me. Sigh~

Kai nian fan....

First day of the Lunar New Year passed all too quickly. Eldest cousin and his wife was at mum's place even before me. The other cousins and their family came later on. Even one of the cousin's daughter came by with her husband. Good that most of them came by on the first day. That will leave us free for the rest of the holidays.

Traditionally, my family also celebrates the second day of the Lunar New Year with another get-together lunch (kai nian fan). This time my sister and her family is joining us for the lunch. Still gave my nieces and nephews their 'big' angpows. Afterall, it's an only once a year affair. Looking at the sumptuous spread, I think it's time for mum to retire and rest from all these cooking. Don't you think the food looks yummy? :)

Chu Xi 除夕...

Finally, the big day arrived. It's 除夕the last day of the last month of the lunar year. And of course the most significant part of the day is the reunion dinner. Made my way to mum's place and as usual, the brothers and sisters together with niece and nephew were all gathering there. For a change, we had steamboat dinner, with very sumptuous spread of meatballs, chicken, pork, fish slices, vegies, etc. It's lots easier for mum to prepare since there is less cooking required. A good alternative to the traditional reunion dinner which mum used to make every year. Anyway, guess she's already advancing in years and time to retire from preparing these elaborate dinners. Hmmm... wonder what's for next year's reunion dinner..... anyway, gave her a big angpow as a gesture for well wishes.

The streets seems so empty. Guess everybody's home taking reunion dinner still. Remembered last year's new year eve, I had to rush back to the control centre to rectify some system problem. Though I didn't miss out on the reunion dinner since the problem was solved very quickly, however, such events leaves lasting impressions.... heavy responsibilities and stress in that job. sigh~

In comparision with last year's incident, the night's scene now looks so serene and peaceful.... And, what's more important than to have family around you? I think I am of all people, really blessed..... :)

Ming Vase?

The budget report in the papers this morning makes good reading, but guess will have to take some time to digest it and assess what is the impact for me. Wonder if there's anything beneficial for me.... but on a first glance, the tables on total GST spendings vs the Offset Package looks impressively tailored by the statistics people. But what they did not factor in is the full 7% GST amount. Rather, they had only shown the 2% increase. lolz.... what a low down trick. Always presenting a half picture. I guess this is the way things always goes when you want to show a good rosy picture. You always present things in your favor. Hmmm.... I'll take my time to go thru' and scrutinise these in details later tonight.

The spring cleaning is almost all done now, with just the study room to tidy up. Should have been more hardworking during the past few months, but anyway, what need to be done, will have to get done. sigh~

Saw another vase at the porcelain stall, quite like it. Looks alot like one of those antique Ming dynasty vase. The owner brothers gave me quite a good price for it. Afterall, had been browsing their ware for the last 2 weeks and had chatted with them quite often. They even treated me and another old uncle from the neighbourhood to a late night supper of their home-cooked mushroom noodle. A little starchy, but the mushroom smells and taste nice. That's hospitality. Looks like they will be staying over for the Chinese New Year. Somehow, the business wasn't doing too well and they do have a problem selling off all the goods. That's the problem of doing business here. Hear the rental of the stall for the 3-4 weeks amounted quite alot, so wonder if they managed any profit for this season.

Love letters....

The flower lasted more than a week! Kinda sad to see it slowly withering away over the days.....

The spring cleaning is almost done now. Left the study room to be tidied up. Quite pleased with the effort. All of a sudden, it's kinda feeling very comfortable at home now. Well, it would be nice to have some of the friends over for a visit during the Chinese New Year. It would be the first cny visit to my new place. Now, gotta go shopping for the new year goodies. hmmm.... love letters anyone? and how about bbq meat? oh, and have to stock up on the drinks too...

Tea for two?

Valentine Day! hmm.... really nothing much to celebrate. It's gonna be just the normal day. How about tea for two? The tea set suits just fine. Get them out for the chinese new year too. hmmm.... this set costs me quite a tidy sum... but the most expensive would be the tea leaves itself, one of the best tea in china. well,.... enjoy it. Happy Valentine Day!

Calligraphy class again in the evening, but the sweet girl with the dimples that smiles wouldn't be here. Kinda miss her already. Two other new students joined the class, while we continued to practice. Slightly more improvement, but still far from doing a good proper script. A potential student dropped by to check out the class. She's in Singapore for a 3 mth work assignment and thought might want to pick up the chinese calligraphy here.

The New Year mood is here....

The festive crowds outside the NTUC is really getting more now. New Year mood seems to be catching on now.

Round the corner is a stall that sells vases from China, mostly procelain and pottery pieces. The two brothers running the stall is from China. Many beautiful pieces, not exactly cheap, but if it is a good piece, I think it's still worthwhile. Bought a vase that have a more modern appeal. Not sure what the glazing on it would be called, but think it would look good as a decoration piece on the ledge between the living hall and the kitchen.

Spring cleaning, continued....

Part 2, Spring cleaning...... well, needs to do some cleaning for the tv set, video recorder and also tidy up the main hall living area. Didn't know I gather so much stuff in this short one year.

Bought a nice chinese paper cut from the shop at town central. A nice 'fu' in the centre with fishes around to signify abundance, and flowers at the sides. The lady in the shop said the pattern at the corners are pomegranate. And the paper cutting is not the mass produced type. Hmmm.... how to tell the difference? The china guy at the pottery stall showed me.... he said, look closely at the cuttings, hand crafted ones will have irregular cuttings and edges will show up imperfections. Look out specially where one cut joins another. This is where imperfections will show up. Nice.....


Like it? paid $5/- for it. I think it's very well done....

Spring cleaning...

Another week and it will be Chinese New Year. Time to do some spring cleaning. Phew~ the place may not be big, but cleaning is sure no easy task. Where do I start? hmmmm.... clean up the water feature first. The new pump is a little too powerful and the water tend to splash a little out onto the floor. The window panes is fairly easy, but surprising, there are altogether 13 window panes in the flat, excluding the toilet ones. phew~

Next the corners and ceiling.... just a quick run thru. But the floors took me the whole afternoon. Enough for the day. hmmm.... the sofa covering looks like they need a washing. Aiiii....... really done for the day now.

Friends come, friends go....

Was already running late, but still have to get lunch. Run into one of the operators from the control centre, also getting lunch at the coffeeshop. Nevermind the time, good to have a chat. Another ex-collegue also happened to come by. So coincidental. Nice to catch up.

The work required in the WV office wasn't really difficult, but as it's quite tedious and requires time, so that's why they needed help. Makes more sense than getting paid staff to do them. The program manager said she and another staff would be quiting after the chinese new year. Rather sad to hear that.

Calligraphy class isn't any extraordinary today. It's last of the 8 lessons for this class. The sweet girl seated behind wouldn't be joining us anymore from next week onwards. So sad. Will miss her smiling dimples. Good thing she left her contact number. Maybe should catch dinner with her one day?

Well, in life, often...... friends come, friends go.... cherish them while you can. :)

A single bloom...

The poor plant looks malnourished, and its leaves extends so tenderly outwards, giving forth a single bud that blossomed over the 3 days.... a lovely pinkish red.... so delicate and fragile, and so lovely and tender.

Was so afraid that the bud would wither before it can bloom. But it didn't. Perhaps, only a pity that it did not flower together with the other pot with the purple flowers. Well, guess it's time for some re-potting.

Lost memories

Saw on TV the other day, that there's going to be an exhibition of photographs on the old Queenstown area. Thought it would be good to revisit the memories of the place where I grew up in. Anyway, service today would be by a guest speaker - Dennis Burke. Think I will just give service a miss this week.


The exhibition is supposedly to be held at the Queenstown CC. But, oh no! Didn't realise that even the CC had moved. Wonder where it is now. Although the neighbourhood isn't really that unfamiliar, but things have changed so much. The block of HDB flat where I spent time as a child is no longer there. Just a simple field now. I remembered how during those childhood days, the field is sloping and at the far end, the area tend to get flooded during the rainy seasons. I used to watch other children played in the flood water, which occasionally, is deep enough even for them to swim in it.


Also, how warm and close the street feels on that sunny morning, years ago, when I returned after a 3 mths trip away in Canada. That familiar road that runs down towards the hawker centre and polyclinic is still there, though somewhat forlorn, quiet, and forgotten.

I suppose, given the pace of development and constructions in Singapore, many of us would be losing out on all our memories. What we grew up with, would likely be, no longer there for us in the years to come.

Sleeplessness....

Was it the excitement this afternoon, having to make various phone calls to the child sponsors to rearrange for the briefing session, or was it because the new lesson learnt at the calligraphy, or was it the effect of the tea I run into an ex-collegue at the coffeeshop.... well, it was sleeplessness which I had not experienced for a long time.

The calligraphy didn't seems to be improving. Somewhat confused by the different approaches and style of writing the Li-Shu style, and the teacher's approach is somewhat diffferent from what we had seen in some of the video presentation and calligraphy pieces. Well, guess will have to make further exploration and experimentation. Anyway, paid for the next set of lessons from Feb 07. And, one glad thing, is that the sweet girl with the smiling dimples is still there. :)

The moon shone brightly.... another 1/2 month and it would be the Lunar New Year. There are many things to get done soon.... the banking matters, the budgeting, the spring cleaning and the new year cookies....

The neighbourhood is so peaceful.... 3 am......... ahhh.... sleepiness, where are you?

The Polyclinic

The tummy didn't get any better since last night. Think the diarrhoea is really acting up this time... been to the toilet at least 4 times this morning, excluding the 4 times last night. Was it the spicy chicken set I had last evening? Wonder if Nat also had the runs.... hahaha.....

Decided to try out the polyclinic. It's conveniently located just across the road. It's already past 10.30am and I guess that's the most crowded period of the day. Registration was a breeze, identification and a 5 mins wait before my particulars are recorded and the doctor assigned. Room 13, wait for your number 515. Good, let's see.... a good number of folks there are elderly. Wonder how long they had been waiting. The electronic signboard says that the average waiting time is 1 hr 30 mins. But then I had priority due to my blood donor status.... anyway, I am in no hurry. The tummy is acting up slightly, but it seems to be getting better.

My turn came soon enough, after a 15 mins wait. Not a major ailment, so I guess I had made the doctor's work much easier this morning, hahahaa... Well, she did quite a careful check, making the necessary inspection, take temperatures, make my lie on the examination bed and checked to make sure the stomach cramps are not due to other problems.

Collection at the pharmacy is the worst of the wait. People were waiting and the space was indequate to offer even comfortable standing room. Collection of the medicine and payment was equally messy. Nevertheless, I got my medicine soon enough. The total cost is $10/- inclusive of the standard medicine - 10 tablets of small green pills. All in, I spend just over an hour there, thanks to the priority status. Well, my first taste of what it means to be on public subsidised medical care. Now, gotta rush back home for the toilet.... hahaha......

Skyline...

Caught a passing glimpse of the city skyline while on the free shuttle in to Suntec. It's been quite some time since I had a good look at the city skyline. Somehow, the hustle and bustle of working life did not afford us to pause and look.


Many years ago, I had, while onboard the Cristobal, leaving Singapore's harbour, watched the city skyline slowly disappearing from sight. Never had Singapore looks so beautiful then. It's home to family, friends.... and that time, the sunlight played down at the angle that bring out a true image of a beautiful island in the sun. Today, the skyline looks equally imposing.... but the sense of longingness is somewhat, diminised..... island in the sun... where are you? Isn't that a tinge of grey with you there?

Reunion

The first few times of involvement with the volunteering work was easy enough. Simple tasks but very manual. Guess this is why they would need volunteers to help out. It would not be productive to have full-time staff working on these. Was chatting casually with the lady in-charge of donor care when we talked about which church I was attending. She mentioned that the finance manager is also attending the church where I used to be, years ago. Perhaps we might know each other. Luara? Well, I guess not. Her's not a familar face when she came over. But, she could call out my name almost immediately! A little shocked.... am I so well known? lolz.....

So finally, the truth is that she's was with me during the secondary 1 & 2 days! Ofcourse I can recall her name, but it's been such a long time since we went on our separate ways after Sec 4, so I really cannot recognise her. She's been in the organisation for some time now and had joined my previous church after I had left. No wonder we never met. There's really so much to catch up on. But honestly, of the school years, Sec 1 & 2 years were not the times where I treasure most. Was it because of the form teacher? Very likely.... even Luara mentioned her dislike of him. Guess will arrange for lunch one day to really catch up.

Gardenscape...

Thought of going shopping,... so took the MRT down to town. Nothing really caught my fancy, but did managed to get my hair cut. Had been putting that off for some time now. It's almost Chinese New Year and I don't want to have a too newly cropped head over the new year. The thinning top is already bad enough. Leaving a long crop of hair would be alot more sympathatic to me... hahaha......

hmmm... this garden scape looks nice at this angle.

Violets....

Decided to have breakfast at the hawker centre. Simple fare but didn't have the luxury to read my newspaper. It's just too crowded there.

The many makeshift stalls selling stuffs for the Chinese New Year are all set up. Red lanterns, paper couplets, decoration pieces.... the furniture shop, CDs, tidbits... and that stall that sells plants. The purple violets looks so pretty. Bought a small pot, but guess it will not last till the new year. Well, at least the blooms will last a week.

My own plant blooms with pink flower instead, but it's kinda a little pathetic now, very malnourised as I had not been putting in good proper fertilisers for some time now. Guess it's time to do some gardening soon. hmmm... where's that green finger?

Because you love me

Because you love me

For all those times you stood by me,
For all the truth that you made me see,
For all the joy you bring to my life,
For all the wrong that you made right,
For every dream you made come true,
For all the love I found in you,
I'll be forever thankful....

You're the one who held me up, never let me fall.
You're the one who saw me through it all....

You are my strength when I was weak,
You are my voice when I could't speak,
You are my eyes when I couldn't see,
You saw the best there was in me.

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach,
You gave me faith 'coz you believed,
I'm everything I am,
Because you love me.

You gave me wings and made me fly,
You touched my hand I could touch the sky,
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me,
You said no star was out of reach.

You are always there for me,
The tender wind that carried me,
A light in the dark shining your love into my life.
My world is a better place because of you......

Beloved of God

Pastor shared a story today during service. A beautiful story, reminding us that we are God's children, beloved by Him.

A seminary professor was vacationing with his wife in Gatlinburg, TN. One morning, they were eating breakfast at little restaurant, hoping to enjoy a quiet, family meal. While they were waiting for their food, they noticed a distinguished looking, white-haired man moving from table to table, visiting with the guests. The professor leaned over and whispered to his wife, "I hope he doesn't come over here." But sure enough, the man did come over to their table. "Where are you folks from?" he asked in a friendly voice.

"Oklahoma," they answered.

"Great to have you here in Tennessee." the stranger said. "What do you do for a living?"

"I teach at a seminary," he replied.

"Oh, so you teach preachers how to preach, do you? Well, I've got a really great story for you." And with that, the gentleman pulled up a chair and sat down at the table with the couple. The professor groaned and thought to himself, "Great... Just what I need another preacher story!"

The man started, "See that mountain over there pointing out the restaurant window. Not far from the base of that mountain, there was a boy born to an unwed mother. He had a hard time growing up, because every place he went, he was always asked the same question, 'Hey boy, Who's your daddy?' "Whether he was at school, in the grocery store or drug store, people would ask the same question, 'Who's your daddy?'

He would hide at recess and lunch time from other students. He would avoid going in to stores because that question hurt him so bad. "When he was about 12 years old, a new preacher came to his church. He would always go in late and slip out early to avoid hearing the question, 'Who's your daddy?'. But one day, the new preacher said the benediction so fast he got caught and had to walk out with the crowd.

"Just about the time he got to the back door, the new preacher, not knowing anything about him, put his hand on his shoulder and asked him, 'Son, who's your daddy?'" The whole church got deathly quiet. He could feel every eye in the church looking at him. Now everyone would finally know the answer to the question, 'Who's your daddy'. This new preacher, though, sensed the situation around him and using discernment that only the Holy Spirit could give, said the following to that scared little boy

"'Wait a minute!' he said. 'I know who you are. I see the family resemblance now. You are a child of God. With that he patted the boy on his shoulder and said, 'Boy, you've got a great inheritance. Go and claim it.'

With that, the boy smiled for the first time in a long time and walked out the door a changed person. He was never the same again.

Whenever anybody asked him, 'Who's your Daddy?' he'd just tell them, 'I'm a Child of God'." The distinguished gentleman got up from the table and said, "Isn't that a great story?"

The professor responded that it really was a great story!

As the man turned to leave, he said, "You know, if that new preacher hadn't told me that I was one of God's children, I probably never would have amounted to anything!" And he walked away.

The seminary professor and his wife were stunned. He called the waitress over and asked her, "Do you know who that man was who just left that was sitting at our table?"

The waitress grinned and said, "Of course. Everybody here knows him. That's Ben Hooper. He's the former governor of Tennessee!"

Yes, let's live life, ever conscious that we are the beloved of God, for we are in Christ Jesus. Even as God, the Father affirmed Jesus when he came up from the waters after he was baptised, by His words "This is My beloved son, in whom I am well pleased!"; we who are in Him, are also the beloved child of God. And it is first with the affirmation that Jesus received, that He went on to performing great miracles, and healing the sick. We too, achieve great things not to receive God's affirmation, but that we would achieve great things for God when we realise the affirmation we have from God - we are the beloved child of God!

With God, nothing's impossible.

The issue on housing for the singles was highlighted once again in the papers. As a single, one cannot buy a new flat directly from the HDB, although there had been some lifting of the restriction, to the effect of allowing these singles above age 35 to buy flats of any size in the resale market. And, the estimates is that there are some 100,000 singles (aged between 35 - 44) in year 2000. Yearly, about 6000+ singles buy a HDB flat in the open market.

It's a kind of frustrated feeling, a sense of being marginised, discriminated against. After all, the singles contribute as much, if not, even more, to the economy of Singapore.

Just for need of examples, as a single, the single-mindedness in the service rendered at work is something many married people do not offer readily. Waking up at 3am to attend to a system fault, and grabbing just an hour sleep before coming in to work again the next day was a normal occurance met with the least objections. But for the married staff, whether the issues are excuses or real problems for the family members, always makes such work routine into obligations which puts the manager/supervisors into ackward situations. Not to say about those maternity, paternity, and child-care leaves which one is entitled to if you have a family. Hence, I would say, the singles are much more commited than their married counterparts, to their work responsiblilties.

Also, as a single, they are taxed more than their peers with family. Afterall, the various 'pro-family' rebates and claims allows them set aside lesser monies for the taxman. For the singles, tax rebates? Well, dream on......

These are the government's policies. Don't hope to fight against it.

But, with God, nothing's impossible!

My God is concern for my well-being. Is not the comfort of my new flat testimony of God's goodness? Not only was the purchase remarkable, but the location, the allocation, the payment, ..... I believe God did not let me be short-changed. Policies may be set, rules may be laid, but I have a God who is powerful.

Today, I can count the blessings of God in so many areas of my life.

Sword of the Spirit

Thorns - relating to the wilderness, desserts,.... these are symbol of the curse brought about by the fall of man. But we have been redeemed by Christ from the curse. He wore the crown of thorns for us, shedding those precious blood so that the curse may be reversed.

Year 2007, a new year, a new beginning. Prophesy our future, speak things into reality.

How?

Rom 8:26 - Likewise, the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.

In the first Pentecost, recorded in Exodus 32:25-28, 3000 were killed. In the first Pentecost after Christ's death, recorded in Acts 2:1-4,41, 3000 were saved. The contrast between the Law, on Mount Sinai; the Spirit, on Mount Zion.

.... and, the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit,...... ~ Ephesians 6:17,18